The Dragon-Princess
To speak of solitude again, it becomes always clearer that this is at bottom not something that one can take or leave. We are solitary. We may delude ourselves and act as thought this were not so. That is all. That is all. But how much better it is to realize that we are so, yes, even to begin by assuming it. We shall indeed turn dizzy, then; for all points upon which our eye has been accustomed to rest are taken from us, there is nothing near any more and everything far is infinitely far. A person removed from his own room, almost without preparation and transition, and set upon the height of a great mountain range, would feel something of the sort: an unparalleled insecurity, an abandonment to something inexpressible would almost annihilate him. He would think himself falling or hurled out into space, or exploded into a thousand pieces: what a monstruous lie his brain would have to invent to catch up with and explain the state of his sense!
So
for him who becomes solitary all distances, all measures change; of these
changes many take place suddenly, and then, as with the man on the mountaintop,
extraordinary imaginings and singular sensations arise that may seem to grow
out beyond all bearing. But it is necessary for us to experience that too. We
must assume our existence as broadly as we in any way can; everything, even the
unheard-of, must be possible in it. That is at bottom the only courage that is
demanded of us: to have courage for the most strange, the most singular, and
the most inexplicable that we may encounter. That mankind has in this sense
been cowardly has done life endless harm; the experiences that are called
"visions", the whole so-called "spirit-world", death, all
those things that are so closely akin to us, have by daily parrying been so
crowded out of life that the senses with which we could have grasped them are
atrophied. To say nothing of God.
But
fear of the inexplicable has not alone impoverished the existence of the individual;
the relationship between one human being and another has also been cramped by
it, as though it had been lifted out of the riverbed of endless possibilities
and set down in a fallow spot on the bank, to which nothing happens. For it is
not inertia alone that is responsible for human relationships repeating
themselves from case to case, indescribably monotonous and unrenewed; it is
shyness before any sort of new, unforeseeable experience with which one does
not think oneself able to cope. But only someone who is ready for everything,
who excludes nothing, not even the most enigmatical, will live the relation to
another as something alive and will himself draw exhaustively from his own
existence. For if we think of this existence of the individual as a larger or
smaller room, it appears evident that most people learn to know only a corner
of a room, a place by the window, a strip of floor on which they walk up and
down. Thus they have a certain security. And yet that dangerous insecurity is
so much more human which drives the prisoners in Poe's stories to feel out the
shapes of their horrible dungeons and not be strangers to the unspeakable
terror of their abode.
Translation:
John J.L. Mood
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